Summer Dazed & Random Thoughts

I'll be the first one to admit that I tend to live a hectic life. I get very easily caught up pursuing opportunities and staying as busy as possible. Sometimes, it gets really overwhelming. Okay actually, a lot of times it gets really overwhelming. It's not that I don't love everything that I do, it's just that I take on the habit of taking on a lot and often times I forget to breathe in between it all.

So, I haven't been blogging about this summer like I promised I would be. It's honestly been a lot different here than I imagined it would be. My plan going into this new summer venture was to focus on learning how to slow my life down a little and truly enjoy each moment. 

Have I done that? Yes, but not entirely in the ways that I thought I would. I have also made some of the most unforgettable and fun memories that I will cherish forever. I couldn't be more thankful. 

I try to learn as much as I can out of my life. I look for opportunities to learn anywhere I can. Sometimes, it's really hard lessons. Sometimes, it's lovely lessons. Both kinds of lessons share a commonality: I see how God expresses his love towards His creations in the most creative of ways.

I turned 21 this month, and all I can say is turning 21 is weird. I am currently wondering if there is anyone in the world whose life doesn't get somewhat weird after they turn 21 (if you know someone, send them my way. I'd love to know how they managed to avoid the weirdness). Yet, I'm embracing the weirdness of it all and still finding ways to learn through it all. 

This summer I have learned how God, at any moment, really can and does change our plans and our expectations for our lives. It's one thing to know this, but to actually see it play out in your life is an entirely different thing. I have seen it in my life time and time again, but never like I have seen it this summer. Sometimes, I think I have it all figured out because I know exactly what I want and exactly who I want to be. Other times, it's just a big ball of confusion. However, what I've really learned is that when you choose to give all of those ideas to God, He puts people in your life and brings opportunities to you that teach you how to believe in even better for yourself.

Taking this random job in an obscure, sleepy town in Massachusetts was a decision that I am so glad I made. Even though it has been far from easy at times, I still have been challenged to enjoy the slow moments and find something good even in the hectic times. My favorite thing about this town is that I live and work within walking distance from this sweet little public library (a childhood dream come true!). I have actually been able to spend time reading this summer which is something that I rarely have time do outside of my life here. 

Also, the weather is sooooooo much more humid here than back home in the Southwest. However, even when dealing with this perceived inconvenience, I am reminded that the flowers are extra bright and beautiful because of it.

Usually after I take a trip, I come back home seeing the world differently. This trip is different though. This trip has made me see myself differently. I can now see that I am capable of a lot more than I thought I was. I can also see that there are some things that I need to work on and move on from.

This summer was exactly what I needed before I move into what the rest of this year has to offer. I still have a couple weeks left here in MA and I still have a lot to look forward to. I am excited. I truly am. At the same time, I am also very eager to head home soon (and eat some New Mexican food smothered with green chile!) and go back to school to finish up my last semester! Life's coming together in some neat ways and opportunities are popping up that I never imagined would. I'm just here learning how to continually trust God through all of it.

- CD